I'm talking about you.

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Have I mentioned lately how thankful I am to have an amazing support system? I'm talking about YOU.  Women who are more than just members on an online forum-you are my friends. I'm not exxagerating when I say I don't know how I could have made it through these months without you. Those of you I found through twitter, and anyone who has stumbled across my blog, thank you.

If someone would have asked me two years ago if I would spend time online and make friends, I honestly would have laughed. Though I wish none of us ever had to find each other, I am thankful that I have made some forever friends. Whether it's a blog comment, text message or a box of meds in the mail, I am always taken aback by your kindness.

I wish I could invite every single one of you over for happy hour!
(non-alcoholic included for my knocked up ladies, of course!)

I have friends!

My friend over at A Day in the Life of Jenn gave me the Versatile blogger award. You don't know Jenn? Well, what are you waiting for? Go check her pretty face out. Thanks, Jenn!
Since I recently gave out a similiar award, I"ll skip the passing, but I will list some random facts about me like I'm supposed to do.

1. My mom walked me down the aisle the day I got married.
2. I judge people who don't recylce. I mean seriously, it isn't hard.
3. We compost everything possible. We don't have much trash at the end of the week.
4. I read Playboy almost monthly.
5. I change the words to songs to correlate to whatever is going on at the time. I'm pretty badass at it.
6. My husband is nicer than me.

Good news!

It has been a while since those words were spoken around here. Yep, it even feels weird to type the words "good news". But, today IS a good day. My cyst is gone!!

So, injections here we go, again! This time we are doing menopur, since it contains LH & FSH, both of which I lack. I should have a better, quicker response than I did with the gonal-f.

I am excited to be stabbing myself again!

I am the face.

Every single day in the US, 2,000 women lose a baby to pregnancy/infant loss.

In honor of October 15th, National Pregnancy/Infant Loss Remembrance Day, I AM THE FACE is opening up the conversation and “putting a face” on miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant loss.

The goal of the I AM THE FACE campaign is simple: to spread awareness of pregnancy/infant loss, and raise support for those who are affected by it.

Check out the site. And, if you are one of the faces of loss, upload your photo. I did.

Overdue Project

We have had this ugly dresser for too long, and I have talked about redoing it for the same amount of time. I finally decided I wasn't waiting for our barn renovations to be close to finished before I redid it. Also, I needed a project to focus my energy on.

I took off the ugly handles. I was going back and forth on whether I wanted to paint them or get new. The deep indentions in the wood made the decision that I would just paint them.

I sanded everything down. 

Painting makes me cuss more than normal and throw paint brushes is not my strong point. Luckily my husband was willing to help me out to speed things along.

Finished! I love it and now have a desire to go yard-saleing to find more things to redo!

Come on, Fall!

Ok, I've got some indoor Fall decorations out, and I am not-so-patiently waiting for some gorgeous, bloomed mums to be on my front porch. Along side corn, straw bales & pumpkins of course. But, what I really want is some Fall weather! We got a tease, but now are back to the heat. Come on, Fall!

"I can't imagine that at the end of this hellish hole you're being thrown down, there isn't something beautiful at the bottom."

This was said to me by a sweet bumpie friend back when we were going through beta hell. I saved it because, well, I loved it. It makes me feel good to read it now & then.

Is there anything someone has said to you, or any favorite quotes that hit home?

Anyday?

This has been a hard week. In addition to being on another forced break due to my cyst, I've just been down. I can't really sleep at night anymore. I feel like I am retreating backward, instead of moving forward.

While I usually love getting all my fall decorations out and seeing everything fall related in the stores, it's different this year. October, my due date month, is now within reach. It seemed so far away this summer, but now it is approaching too quickly. While out with my mom yesterday I saw a "Baby's First Halloween" onesie and I recoiled. I had a painful vision of what it was supposed to be like. I should have been purchasing it, not running in the other direction.

I know I have mentioned, (& mentioned, & mentioned) my love of Roseanne. I spent many days in bed after my loss, watching season after season. It helped pass the time and get me through when my bedroom walls were my only views. Today, I watched the very last episode. I guess I thought I would be in a better place by the time it was over.

I'm tired of the rain falling. I'm ready for some sun.