::Exhale::

I have been on the verge of an anxiety attack all day, waiting to hear my last beta update. My husband kept trying to remind me that all the other betas had been good, and I had no reason to expect bad. But, hello, has he never met me? I told him Christmas would be cancelled for us if we got bad news.

Finally, the call. Beta #4 is 1,971. First u/s is on Monday. ::massive sigh of relief:: I am still shaking and on the verge of tears, but for good things this time.

Another shout out to all of you for your amazing support. Seriously. Speechless.

Beta # 3

533.  And only one needle poke today!
Another draw on Thursday, and then an u/s should be scheduled.

Still nervous, still cautious, still pregnant!

How will I explain this bruise?

Lots of needle pokes, a blown vein in my hand, and having to leave the RE office & go to another lab to finally get my blood drawn: all worth it. Beta #2 is 206!!

I know I am not in the clear yet. I have seen great first & second betas followed by a loss. ::points to self:: I will continue having my levels checked until it reaches 2,000. Then an ultrasound will be scheduled.

Thank you again for all your good thoughts. When I started this blog I never thought I would have followers. All your comments & support mean so, so much!

Beta #1

At 12 days past iui, my hcg is 93 and my progesterone is 50. Repeat on Friday.

 ::Deep breaths::

Thank you all for the positive thoughts. You guys rock!

Ecstatic & Scared

I'm off for beta #1. More to come later.

Sa-weet!

My beta is FINALLY negative. FINALLY!! This has been the never-ending miscarriage. Since May 10th to be exact.

When the nurse told me all I could say was, "Sweet!".

I hung up and called my husband right away. His reaction? "Sweet!"

Yeah, today is a good day. It feels amazing to be able to say and think those words.

I'll be having mass amounts of alcohol.

Today's beta? 13. Yes, it went up. Only one, but still. Wrong fvcking direction.
Another draw on Monday. It is looking like I will have to have another methotrexate injection.

Oh, but my nurse said she was aware we were still trying to go on our trip. The trip that was postponed due to my last metho injection. Her word's? Don't lose hope on the vacation.

I didn't bother telling her that hope is no longer in my vocabulary.

I have news!

MY LEVELS DROPPED! It is now at 10. I know I shouldn't get that excited because of how things have gone in the past, but this is the first drop in 2.5 weeks. (They previously stayed at 17, then upped to 18)


Please, please be negative next week.

Hurry up, please.

My beta is Friday.

Let the longest week ever begin.