This can't really be happening. I just want to wake up from this bad dream. Infertility was the unlucky hand we were dealt. I don't want to add loss.
Nothing seems real. Yesterday before we went into our appointment, I was shaking. Literally. I was so nervous. I had a nagging feeling since our last appointment that something wasn't right. The fact that I could have a baby in October didn't seem real. Nothing seems real.
I have to have surgery on Monday. To remove my baby. I guess it doesn't get any more real than that.
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Why Born in a Barn?
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- Amber
- Married to my love for 4+ years, together for 10+. Infertility sucks. IUI with injectibles worked, but a miscarriage & ectopic followed. Another IUI worked, and we welcomed our perfect little man in August 2011!
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I've been thinking about you so much. Again, I'm so very sorry that this happened. I'm here for you whenever you need me.
ReplyDelete((HUGS)) I'm so so so very sorry Amber.
ReplyDeleteAmber, I'm here with an ear or a shoulder. But if you're like me, you just need time alone to figure it all out. Huge hugs!!
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